Taxes,
I owe so much money to the IRS, I no longer feel like i work for a living but for the IRS;
but before I go any futher, i want to share with you the lyrics that have been playing in my head;
My World Is Empty Without You
The Supremes
(Brian Holland/Lamont Dozier/Edward Holland, Jr.)
My world is empty without you, baby
My world is empty without you, baby
And as I go my way alone
I find it hard for me to carry on
I need your strenght
I need your tender touch
I need the love, my dear
I miss so much
My world is empty without you, baby
My world is empty without you, baby
From this old world
I try to hide my face
From this loneliness
There's no hiding place
Inside this cold and empty house I dwell
In darkness with memories
I know so well
I need love know
More then before
I can hardly
Carry on anymore
My world is emty without you, babe
Without you, babe
(My world is emty) without you, babe
My mind and soul
Have felt like this
Since love between us
No more exist
And each time that darkness falls
It finds me alone
With these four walls
My world is emty without you, babe
Without you, babe
(My world is emty) without you, babe
Without you, babe
Without you, babe
Why? I don't really know; I mean, there is no YOU in my life right now, so, whom I am focusing this attention on is a mystery to myself; secondly, i think, maybe it just touched me cause it was playing in rotation on my Itunes when I got out of bed this morning. Just maybe, I am painfully lonely and the song reminds me of this fact. I think, also cause it is a very "romantic" tune and my heart yearns for some one to put into that frame. The version that I have is from the Motown remixed vol.1 Album..a good find..of course I don't quite recall where I found it; maybe it is a CD burn and i thought i found it online..oh well, still a great song.
o.k., back to TAXES,
the thing with me and the IRS, resulted because I failed to report the tax on an annuity that I had cashed out. This of course, increased my income that tax year; and the IRS have been hounding me every since. This coupled with the fact that every tax year since; I have been unable to pay my taxes so the debt just compounds, and the IRS just keep on coming; now this debt is below 3 grand, hell I don't think it's more than 2 grand at my last check, but the IRS just keep on hounding me like i'm out to cheat them. I want to find some kind of legal way to get them off my back, but most of these legal advice services are just looking to make a fast buck off of my troubles and I don't want that additional problem nor can I afford it.
Eric Balfour from '6 feet under' and my quick pen and ink take on the same image; I really liked his looks in the HBO series; and I have to be honest I really liked his character, though a bit shifty and shady; he is quite the eye candy; I have seen him in some other films lately but for the life of me I simply don't recall; now, trust me I really don't lust for heterosexual guys in my day to day life__i simply think this man is so damn good looking and naturally very, very sexy for anyone (straight or queer).
i mean, who can not see the sexuality let alone feel the fire this man produces; and the little booty shots are just plain sexy; i'm gonna post one more picture (all of which i found on the internet,) cause you get to see the nipples this cat is sporting..and erect nipples on a good looking man, are my weakness;
who wouldn't want some of that? Russian, French, and Native American (all i see is native)
In January, 2008, he participated in a video for Barack Obama produced by Will.I.Am called Yes We Can
Oh, o.k., i'm not talking about taxes now, so lets move on to my next'ting; Managing a Blog, esp. the comments section.
I have only recently, like today, just realized that I'm responsible for either publishing or not publishing comments made by you the reader. duh? I mean, I really didn't realize with the Yahoo web hosting movabletype publishing platform, that I had to go in and check my comments module and decide who got published and who didn't. Well, one thing I did notice, and that 90% of my comments are just junk solictation from viagra vendors or the like. I think since I started this blog way back in 2005, I've only really received about 30 comments from actual readers. I am so sorry I did not get a chance to respond to all the earlier comments; I won't promise here, but I will be making more of an effort to look at my comments in the future.
now, one comment left simply didn't make sense to me, and I'm not sure to what the commentor is refering:
other reasons, well, i'm simply lazy; I mean I work on a computer for a living so I don't like to spend too much time on one at home anymore; I also spend way more time on flickr.com as far as uploading my art work and viewing others work; I have another set of blogs, like 'Yo, is that you leroy' and 'black buck'n'berry'
which has become more or less a holding place for the photos i admire off of flickr.com and want to share with another audience. Whereas Yo is that you leory is more about music and review, though I haven't reviewed anything since Feb. 07; call me lazy o.k., but blog managing is way time consuming and i simply don't have that much time in my life just to post entries to the world.
i wish i had that much free time;
I want to make a promise to myself that i'm gonna get more in touch with my blogs, but that would be foolish;
speaking of social networks..
flickr.com and Adam4Adam are the two i spend the most time reviewing and checking out, go figure, art and sex no less. I am not overwhelmed by either, but they both serve a special purpose in my life. I wish i had greater satisfaction, i.e., actual sales of my art or actual dates worth mentioning from either of these networks, alas, that is not the case; The thing about A4A that i like the most is that it has put me back in touch (no pun intended) with black men, and others of color that I am not have much luck at in just living my life around the bay area. Seems everyone lurks the internet sooner than the streets. 
I cann't say I have had the best luck with guys that I have met on A4A, but I won't really complain about them; we are what we are; I'm sure a few guys, probably didn't think I was much of a ticket either after meeting me. This image on the right is a member of A4A, his tag line is 'Material', i was inspired enough with his pic to attempt my own take on it..which has garnered a few fans off flickr but I never got a word out of material himself, i guess I'm not his cup of tea. Which brings me to 'Elvis' my boi wonder, now Evis and I have been kicking it for the last , 8 months, 
and I have to say, he is the sweetest, kindest, and most emotionaly generous young man I have met in a very long time. He makes a lot of the cats I have met on A4A seem emotionaly retarted (and that's unfair to the mentally challenged to even call them that.) Elvis is a pothead, but he definitly lights up my life. I simply love to be around him; now being a chicken hawk it seems sometimes I forget my better self and lust after him in parts, but i've never acted on this lust.
i had to go there..1.22.08; & i still feel this way..
I am out of sync with myself; everytime he visits, i'm thrilled, but like most simulates, the down time is unbearable; I should know better but age is not always wisdom; thus
i adore him yet keep myself at a 'mature' respectable distance--which is quite tor·tur·ous; i guess i deserve this torture since i can not bear not to be around him; when he visits--that smile, that laughter, that kindness, so distinct to him; I can not recall a boi so kind esp., to me; and yes, he is a boi, which is the real crux of the matter--i would never violate the natural order of things between him and i; even though my experience wants to rapidly advance that nature; again this too is the crux
of the problem--the line between natural order and the push of experience; how can I tell?
out of sync, i can not paint, i can not draw, i can not think, until he is around--then we smoke a couple of phat blunts and I am simply lost;
my spirit soars, my desire swells, and i am lost..
pity, to be so old (i.e. old enough to know better yet foolish enough to not care)
yet too afraid to lose what we do have for something more;
i tell you what, the next time he lys around me lightly fingering his belly button i'm gonna kiss that button--to hell with pro·pri·e·ty
now, my list of topics included also,
Teeth ( or why do dentist rip off my HMO)
Some general practitioners and many if not most oral surgeons have institutionalized overcharging by routinely classifying extractions as more complex than they actually are.
Many oral surgeons also administer a general anesthetic or I-V sedation as a matter of routine, often at a cost greater than the extraction, even though a local anesthetic injection, often referred to as a shot of novocaine, is adequate and safer.
Uninformed patients have no way of knowing if they are being overcharged, and most insurance companies and public agencies are indifferent to the abuse.
One study by a dental insurance administrator revealed that 62 percent of claim statements (bills) submitted for insurance payments by oral surgeons in California contained overcharges.
In nearly 50 percent of extractions, the oral surgeons claimed that the surgery to remove the teeth was more complex and should be paid at a higher fee than was justified by the actual procedure.
Analysis of bills submitted to Blue Shield of Pennsylvania, one of the largest insurance companies in the country, revealed the same overclassification and overcharging for extractions.
Although these studies were done a number of years ago, dental consultants reviewing billings, have observed the same pattern up to the present.
Four normally developing third molars.
If these four unerupted wisdom teeth are removed, and the two upper ones are charged as full bony impactions, even though they are simple soft tissue extractions, you or your insurance will be overcharged by as much as $350.
Most of these teeth will erupt normally, at which time the extraction, if needed, would—or should—be charged as a routine, complicated procedure at a cost of approximately $90 each.
Extracting them prematurely with the additional expense of general anesthesia at $175 or more means that the overcharge is even greater than described.
By any standard other than the profession's and the insurance companies' acquiescence, this type of institutionalized overcharging would be classified as fraud.
Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=K.M._Dodd
2 Dark Chocolate Dreams 16oz
1 Cinnamon Raisin Swirl 16oz
1 Raspberry Marshmallow Fluff
Income (or the lack thereof)
&
Race (well, racial is more likely)
But to be honest I'm rapidly loosing steam;
Grace Jones has a son, Paulo Goude whom is a band member of La Gouache he is also rather handome lad, check him out..
Speaking of Music, I forgot to mention Jet Set Records, one of the greatest online record, cd shops in Japan. Ship worldwide 238 countries & areas. I recently purchased the following items (one of which was a rather stupid choice, since i could have just bought it from a domestic distributor for probably less..oh well, ya know, i check'd myself, on this, and the Alica Keys was 580yen converted it equals $5.60 in US, so no, I actually saved money cause the domestic copy uncolored runs for $9.99 on "Amazon and Sony music and that's the CD version no indication of vinly..o.k., i'm not stupid)
BULLWACKIES ALL STARS/FREE FOR ALL-LPx1
ROLAND ALPHONSO/A SHOT IN THE DARK / DETERMINATION 45-7"
OH NO/DR. NO'S OXPERIMENT FAN CLUB 45-7" (now out of print, lucky me..)
im tryin to be on my b i peoples......
soooooo
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ima be updatin this shit on a daily basis..or at least when im chillin smokin!!!!!!!!
new music, photos, info, my personal reviews on shit like music, movies, weed and games....
and
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ALICIA KEYS/AS I AM-2LP (colored vinly WOW)
musical experiences
speaking of music, 
Leave these people alone! We have democracy, so all men and women do what they want, and they don’t care what you think!
Posted by: sandeep | April 3, 2008 02:01 AM
it was left after an entry called 'my life, of December 28, 2005 entry; now the entry is all about music, which anyone reading this blog on the regular will not is what most of my entries are about or at least reference; I guess I do spill my guts about sex and love or is that love and sex quite often, and of course, Art. esp., my own art.
anyway, the reason, I am so slow to managing my blog is cause each desktop that i work from has different internet speed, and my home system is the slowest; this discourges me from working on the blog at home which would be more relaxed; but my workstation at work is very fast.